They stand and wait...

For a beautiful boy who entered my life on 18th January 2011

The journey starts
In protective hands
They will pray for you
As they stand and wait

Today is the day
And tonight is the night
When their dreams will seem real
As they stand and wait

The serenity will prevail
With silent celebrations around you
You wouldn't notice their joy
As they stand and wait

There are many waiting for you
Many you don't even know of yet
But one day you will, notice them
As they stand and wait

And one day their wait will be over
And they will hold you in their hands
That is why they don't complain
As they stand and wait.

The night we call ours

Tonight, Let's pretend that it never existed
The pain that life caused
The love that we lost
The friends that we left behind

Tonight let's break out
To the rythm of our hearts
To the motion of our tears
To the sound of our fears

Tonight let's celebrate
Our perfect imperfections
Our defeated smiles
Our broken hearts

Tonight let's have faith
In the decisions we make
In the people we meet
In the night we call, ours!

Your light, the murk and me.

I felt dark and forbidden as I walked across Your lands

In search of a sanctuary, thirsty for redemption

The scars of abundance still fresh on my skin

My heart decided it's time to return

Broken, I knelt down in front of You

Guilt diffusing in my blood, slowly and painfully

And I cried like a doe in search of her child

Playing those memories over and over again

Those times of loneliness and insecurity

When You held my hand, for the first time

Your immense wisdom, brightened my path

Instantaneously, You were the only one in my heart

I lived in Your light and life seemed easier

I was smiling again, feeling strong; never realizing

How quickly murk conquered me and pulled me away

From my only sanctuary, my only love.

And Your light called for me over and over again,

Had I ever listened, I would have known

That You were still there for me, still loving me

Even as I lusted for the harsh pleasures of the murk

With all the glitter blinding me

And all the noise deafening me

I wasn't able to distinguish what was real

I wasn't able to understand what was pure

Then one day the pleasures were no more,

And to be in the murk, it pained and it hurt

They turned their backs, leaving me to the murk; alone

Leaving me the way I was before; lonely and insecure

I craved for the warmth of Your light

The solace of Your wisdom,

The satisfaction of Your love,

Just You and nothing else.

And as I walked across your lands once again,

Immersed in the sea of guilt and pain

I found Your light; glinting with acceptance

Giving me a second chance, taking me in once again

Once again I smiled, depicting the faith I bore

Strengthened by Your presence in my heart

Leaving behind everyone who once was

Embracing Your love. I know how much I need you

And to You I plead to bestow me with the courage

To hold on to You even as I smile

Because I need You, no matter what.

And I'll love You no matter what.

With every moment......

With every moment I feel smaller inside,

With every moment I feel less important,

With every moment I feel more imponent,

With ever moment I grow invisible,

With every moment my dreams seem further,

With every moment my goals get unachievable,

With every moment I feel less loved,

With every moment I feel I more lost,

With every moment I feel more camouflaged,

With every moment, which I waste,

I feel closer to death!

It made all the difference!

I have this major issue of expecting really high and when thing don't turn out the same, it really hurts! And this is what happened with me when I started junior year, I expected it to be so much and it turned out to be just fine!!! And I am still waiting for something good to happen! Hope things get better! Happy Reading!



I gazed at the sky, sitting by the window
Covered with dark clouds, hanging low!
The chilly wind, pricked my skin
Like a thousand thorns!

I liked it!

I had my hand stretched out,
'Cos I knew, soon I'll be feeling
The cool drops of rain! And then
My hands would go all numb!

It'll feel good!!

I waited for it, my hand in its place
But then what I felt was not rain
I felt snow, melting on my skin
My hands did go numb

But it wasn't the same

And though the crystals melted
On my hand , it felt like the rain
Nothing felt that different, but
My expectations were shattered!

And it made all the difference!

The fresh start

I wrote this poem on the night, when I had the first day of junior year. I was nervous and freaked out! This poem might sound stupid! But every line has something behind it, something from my life! And this poem means a world to me!

Today from where I stand
The past is behind me
All those harsh painful memories
I'm over them
The tears that have soaked my face
Are now dried up

I have the seed in my hand
A water can in other
Today I am the master
Of what might come
I can fill the place with blossoms
With the soothing fragrance
Or I can let it be
And let it burn under the sun

Today from where I stand
I look back
At the days that have passed by
When I was standing
At the same place
But what had to come did come

And looking at everything
I have gone through
I feel
That I never was the master
Of what is to come
Sometimes you sow the seed
But you get nothing back
The sun is too powerful
To let them grow

Even after knowing everything
I love the feeling of being in control
For the moment
Which one day
I'll be looking back at!

I'll find you in the rainbow after the rain

You might be wondering why my recent posts are all about rain, well the thing is that these days it's raining in Karachi (which actually happens once in a year) and secondly events in my life are such that I can relate them to rain and come up with beautiful pieces of poetry! Well, this piece is a personal favorite! Do let me know what you think. Happy reading!

I looked for you
In the deep seas
That danced to the beat of the breeze

I searched for you
In the dark spaces
Between the glinting stars

I rummaged for you
In the dark clouds
When it was about to rain

I searched for you
In ever drop of rain
That came my way from the sky

I didn't find you though
And now I wait; as drops of water
Dance to the ground

'Cos, after every rain there's sunshine
And, maybe I'll find you,
In the rainbow, after the rain.